.Friday, February 15, 2008 ' 1:40 AM
& things that, are not worth, just let it go
i just cant stop missing u. thinking how u spend ur day todae.
are u happy? i saw many loving couples along the street.. almost every gurl are holding a bouquet of flowers in their hand and i recall the first time when i received one from you... it was a surprise to me back then..
if i haven break up with you, will we be one of the loving couples i have seen in the street today? i suddenly feel like going home at once, becos all i could do is watch how sweet and loving they are.. and all of the sudden i feel like crying but hold back my tears... i missed the time when we have our sweetest time, the days when i hug and love you with all i can...
Once, you said you would love me forever and u said i am the only one who make u feel so happy with.. i do have the same feeling too but i did not noe how to express it out cos you are my first bf..
i was very scared of falling deeper in love with u each time whenever you say those to me,becos one day i worried.. you would just leave me alone and making me hurting more.. I thought i could overcome all the sadness myself but i noe i am deceiving myself by telling myself again and again that u still do have feelings for me...I have tried all i could to hold you back and hinting to you i dun wan to leave you but then once and once again i get more and more hurting cos i did not even have the chance to talk to you again...
I don't know when you will ever look me up again, but i will just wait.. wait till the day when u tell me personally u still love me or telling me to give up cos u dun love me anymore...But here i wanted to tell you although u are my first bf, you reali make me feel loved...
And i reali yearn for the day when u are willing to over come ur fear and love me again...
