.Sunday, November 16, 2008 ' 11:34 PM
& things that, are not worth, just let it go
i cant hold my tears anymore..
now. even my mom is not defending me .
she blames me. blames me for everything.
to her, i am useless, i guess.
to her, i am to blame for everything i does.
to her, others is always right, i am wrong.
when i fought with my friend and tell my the other friend,
she will always say i am the one in wrong.
she said. i should not care about anything.
that she meant i cannot share anything with my friends,
even though i have troubles and worries.
and she always say i would follow wadever others said or what others did.
as if i cannot have my own opinion,
cannot have my own way of doing things.
She said i was the stubborn-est girl in the world,
which cause break up btw me and wenjie.
until now, even though it had pass almost one year,
she still blame me. blame me for being so ignorant and stubborn
that end up breaking-up.
which make me weird, angry and sad.
i know it had been hard for her
cos she misses him. and she likes him lots.
and over this year,
times and times again she would remind me that i am the one who is in wrong.
YES, i finally shouted back to her today.
i told her.
I am in wrong for everything.
It was correct for my friend to comment abt me.
It was rite for wj to break up with me cos of my stubborn-ness.
It was wrong for me to share things with my friend.
and...I am blame for everything. I am wrong for doing everthing i does.
I am useless and I am sorry.
What are friends really for then?..
