.Monday, September 21, 2009 ' 11:22 PM
& things that, are not worth, just let it go
yeah! i am back blogging again!
and its hols again..
but i dun feel a single tinge of excitment actually...
cos i gt to look for jobs for this one month so that i gt eunf $ to pay for the dec japan study tour with my other 9 classmates..
intially i was feeling real happy and lucky that i am "selected' by drawing lots amongst 50 plus students
everyone has been waiting for this chance to go.. so without any much consideration, i agreed to go for this jp tour.
but now i think i am starting to regret...
cos i tot i was able to cover up the $1700 jp tour if i am able to find a job and work for this whole one month.. but now i just realised i still had to pay my sch fee this coming october which is another 1000 plus..
Worse still, my mom is starting to blame herself for not able to fork out those $ for my jp trip..
and thus her condition became worsened again becos of this issue..
all along she tot that the 10 person hu are going for this trip are personally selected by lecturers .. i have explain to her so many times that is being " draw lots" i was just being lucky to be selected.. but she just refused to listen and said that the trip will help me to improve my grade and so on...but NOT!
Thus she has been supporting and encouraging me to go...
but now i reali dun wan to waste the $ to go for a jp trip which will not help me to improve my grades at all and even cause my mom's condition worsened! i reali dun wan to go...
But i guess now there is no more choice... cos i have alr agreed and the lecturers are alr proceeding to book the airline tickets and all...
Damn... i reali duno wad to do now.!
i just hope that my job would provide me a very gd pay(
if i gt the job) that i could cover my sch fee and my trip to dun let my mom wry over the $ thingy... hais...
kk.. i am going to slp now.. going to interview 2moro.. nite!
